to the end, will you follow me?

¡oof! how to captivate the innately indescribable? I am left feeling both fully perplexed and entirely ignited by this life, this world, human curiosity, and the capacity new adventures carry to broaden who you are as a person. Being guided back to a place of confident reassurance in my life and who I am passionately pursuing within it.

I could tell you that in these moments with all these feelings in my chest, my eyes so full of beauty and my belly overflowing with dal and cookies, this is the simplest truth: I am so goddamn happy. there is no beast or snake on this earth sneaky or strong enough to steal my joy. I am burning with it, steaming the air around me. And if I just let it all be still, I cry. Not because I’m sad, nor overwhelmed, maybe not even necessarily because I am happy, I am so completely in awe of this life. How terrible it can be, yet how wonderful. Both existed so fully on this trek, they are amongst the dramatic ridges of the Himalayas, they are the whipping, crisp, breath-takingly cold winds, they are the sun, the hot tea, the giggles, and the kindness.

I am reassured that walking is one of the most grounding activities you can do for your soul. I walked to the tallest mountain in the world with a heart far less confused and achy than the one I had become so accustomed to feeling nestled in my ribs. And I’m so damn grateful for the discrepancies of being a human in this existence; the varying victories, failures, joys, and moans, create such a colorful flavor to the unexpected journeys in this life. It draws me inward, stretching me beyond comfort into such an exquisite place of curiosity, coupled with the safety in returning home, nestling oneself in the lap of a mother. The desire has quickly become a need, a necessity, not rooted in pride or selfishness, but in the spirit of a child, running to the safety of the arms that hold them tightest. And I can say without hesitation, watching that young child run towards the dreams that both ignite and ground her soul, I would follow her anywhere, all the way to the very end.